22. Chick. College grad. I fell hard and then I crashed hard. I lost the love of my life and this is how I cope. Welcome to my Diary :)Ask me anything Submit
I am so confused. I don’t know what I want. I met this guy, he’s awesome. He’s not dumb. He can keep up with the witty banter I like and he knows how to make a girl laugh. He’s pretty freaking tall at 6’4” and height is one of the most attractive traits a guy can have in my opinion. He is pretty muscular and has that coveted v where his abs start to go down further. He makes me feel special and appreciated. My point here is this guy is a great guy. BUT here I am pulling away from him, because I miss Josh.
I haven’t talked to him in 2 days. Nothing. Not a word. Not a Hi, Hey, How you doing? But you know who I have been talking to? Josh. I don’t know if it’s what I should be doing, but it’s what I am doing. A whole year has passed since we’ve broken up and I still feel like it was yesterday. That’s how much I miss him.
I don’t know if my feelings for him are as real as they once were. I don’t even know him anymore. I know things would never be the same as they were before we broke up, too much time has passed and too many things have happened. But here I am willing to throw away a perfectly good guy, just for another chance with him. WHAT AM I DOING?! I’ll more than likely just end up hurt again. But I can’t help it.
Is it even worth it? I don’t know.